Johan here again. It’s been a little more than a year since I actually blogged. Well, as many of you know I don’t really blog that often; if anything, I only post some photos here and there.
Since so much had happened during this past year, I felt it was necessary to write a short blog about it.
Hmm, so where do I start?
First of all, I do want to thank those that had continued to support me through my ups and my downs. For always encouraging me and as well as to remind me of what God has already done and what He will do in my life.
About a year ago, I was still debating on what I should do as a career and whether or not I would ever find something that was suitable for me. After countless times of wondering, arguing with my inner self and those around me, I have finally given an opportunity to work as a Functional QA at a private IT consumers company. Even upon getting hired and then ended up being as a Functional QA was a surprise to me since I had no IT or CS background, but I guess my first full-time job has helped me somehow. Or should I say God has already prepared that for me? Boy, did I struggle, but luckily I had a patient trainer that helped me and pushed me to learn/improve my knowledge of QA testing for Android based applications. I think now I can actually find a good “bug”. Haha.
Although that was one of the major events that happened, finding out that I would also become an aunt has definitely brought more love and joy for me for babies and toddlers (not that I wasn’t already when I had my summer job working at a children dinosaur exhibition last summer…) It helped me to look further knowing there still so much joy and hope in life, especially for a newborn baby.
I think sometimes we are too attached to our lives, the struggles, expectations in/from people and the goals and failures that we encounter each day, that we forget to relax and “smell the daisies”. Or to say that we forget how we were made and what it is like to be ourselves.
I think what I am trying to say is that I have learned to let of many things. For example, stop trying to be somebody when you are already you, you have to learn who you are and truly understand how God has made you to be. Take some time, even 5 minutes to rest and stop caring what the world thinks of you. What do you or God think of you when you are just sitting alone without the white noises? Most importantly, give yourself a chance to see yourself. You won’t know until you try it. I am pretty thankful for this past year because God has shown me and made me understand that it is through my weaknesses would I truly see His glory. My confidence is built upon not simply from my hard work but coming from a realization that He is the source of my strength daily. He had gracious walked and guided me through this eventful past year and I have no doubt He will continue to.
At this moment as I prepare myself for the next job, knowing that it might or might not be another Functional QA job, my heart is at peace knowing that He already prepared one for me and it will reveal itself at the proper time.
Being the person who only knows how to encourage people, I am grateful for friends and love ones that take the time to encourage me through their words. One of my friend shared with me as I quote her here,
“Couldn’t be prouder Johan. I never shared this with you but seeing you work through the stressful times at that job inspired me to keep pushing through my last job and this one as well. So thanks for that. ”
How encouraging is that?!
Sometimes, I still have the tendency to ask myself “Would I ever…” but then I am reminded by all that He has given me this past year… whether it is showing my a career direction, showing me more love and hope through my baby niece or even providing me a pandaman (haha..the boyfriend, that’s another story..), so there is no reason to doubt if anything will ever make sense in my life.
“There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears.”
– Philippians 1:6 (The Msg.)
May this be an encouragement to you.